[ The world may be a stage, but even though the story has been written for the actors whose parts have already been played, what does it mean for the one who unexpectedly becomes called back for an encore?
This memory may be an act shown without permission, though the fact it has been at all simply means that there can be nothing done to take it back.
It isn't easy, watching each part of this dreadful memory — the hurt exacted upon Shinjiro in the past and now — but he never felt too cowardly to look away. Even if the other man utters those words. ]
...Perhaps not. Though, the future is a different story.
[ He speaks this even as the horrid picture of Shinjiro being hit makes him feel ill; angry. There is at least some concern for the child too, stepping in like that — he must be younger than Yanqing, at least. But, whatever happens here, he can't stop it, so he turns his gaze back upon Shinjiro, at hearing those words. ]
Indeed, he was a child who didn't deserve to get caught up in this.
Still, you didn't deserve any of that either.
...What is done is done, I know.
But, everything that happened to you here...it certainly didn't fix anything. It didn't make any of it right.
[ Even if events grow worse to be displayed before them, one thing is certain, however:
Never again will Jing Yuan simply allow himself to be forced to keep from being there for someone who cares about — for being unable to help that person. The guilt of being the one to arrive too late, but to know it all.
Seeing this tightens his resolve, even if unease swims through him. He'll watch it all, every single damned accursed moment of it, and then he won't hold back. ]
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This memory may be an act shown without permission, though the fact it has been at all simply means that there can be nothing done to take it back.
It isn't easy, watching each part of this dreadful memory — the hurt exacted upon Shinjiro in the past and now — but he never felt too cowardly to look away. Even if the other man utters those words. ]
...Perhaps not. Though, the future is a different story.
[ He speaks this even as the horrid picture of Shinjiro being hit makes him feel ill; angry. There is at least some concern for the child too, stepping in like that — he must be younger than Yanqing, at least. But, whatever happens here, he can't stop it, so he turns his gaze back upon Shinjiro, at hearing those words. ]
Indeed, he was a child who didn't deserve to get caught up in this.
Still, you didn't deserve any of that either.
...What is done is done, I know.
But, everything that happened to you here...it certainly didn't fix anything. It didn't make any of it right.
[ Even if events grow worse to be displayed before them, one thing is certain, however:
Never again will Jing Yuan simply allow himself to be forced to keep from being there for someone who cares about — for being unable to help that person. The guilt of being the one to arrive too late, but to know it all.
Seeing this tightens his resolve, even if unease swims through him. He'll watch it all, every single damned accursed moment of it, and then he won't hold back. ]