You make it sound like such a nebulous thing. But I suppose that's not wrong.

[ ... ]

I am not a kind creature. There is a role I am expected to play. The worst that people have to offer still sickens me to the core. The fact of the matter is, I've done things I cannot take back.

But at the same time ... I do not belong in the world I was summoned from. Still, I cannot simply abandon it, or run from the things that have already come to pass.