I know what caused it, at least. That much was never in question.

[There really wasn't a single Eastern wizard who emerged from their mission unscathed on the emotional front, honestly. They're a very well-adjusted bunch in general...]

I just don't know how to resolve the feelings. I've... always run away from that sort of thing.

[And then what does one do when they reach a point where there is nowhere left for them to run?]