[ aguero can see that and he hums a note of agreement. it's a bit odd to think about, but that might be one of the reasons why tatara is different from maria and baam. because he is, and aguero knows that in his heart by now.
that's why he has to bare the end of his story with maria even if his instincts are telling him otherwise. ]
Hah, it's because I used past tense right? I'm not sure why I do that, she's not dead or anything. And I'll likely meet her again sometime while I climb the Tower. But I think I do because...
I didn't make my sister a Princess. Maria asked me to help her instead and so that's what I did. She didn't offer me anything, she didn't lie to me, she didn't sleep with me, she didn't try to convince me it was for my own good.
Maria asked and I simply wanted to. I thought she deserved it more than my own sister, more than anyone else. To become a Princess of Zahard means to become royalty, to have power beyond even the top 1% of the Tower. Zahard is a God of the Gods and his Princesses are an extension of him.
It was easy to betray my own direct family, my mother, my cousin, my sister, the Agnis line. They never suspected a thing even with the building rumors that Maria and I were together. Losing the position of Princess meant our line was banished from the family estate, that's how the Khun family works. There's so many of us and we're always fighting someone, even if it's ourselves.
My sister couldn't take the failure, even if it was all my fault and she killed herself. And my cousin, Kiseia, refused to believe that I was the reason that we lost everything until I told her straight to her face over and over. I don't regret a single part of it, not then and not now.
...I haven't seen Maria since she became a Princess. I did what she wanted and that made me happy at the time, but I guess—I wanted to stay by her side even after. But I was too afraid to ask and too stupid to realize that even I can get lonely.
I feel like I've finally figured that part of me out, though. With you. [ whispered, just for them. he hasn't cried in years upon years, but his voice is heavy and his chest tight. ]
cw; suicide
that's why he has to bare the end of his story with maria even if his instincts are telling him otherwise. ]
Hah, it's because I used past tense right? I'm not sure why I do that, she's not dead or anything. And I'll likely meet her again sometime while I climb the Tower. But I think I do because...
I didn't make my sister a Princess. Maria asked me to help her instead and so that's what I did. She didn't offer me anything, she didn't lie to me, she didn't sleep with me, she didn't try to convince me it was for my own good.
Maria asked and I simply wanted to. I thought she deserved it more than my own sister, more than anyone else. To become a Princess of Zahard means to become royalty, to have power beyond even the top 1% of the Tower. Zahard is a God of the Gods and his Princesses are an extension of him.
It was easy to betray my own direct family, my mother, my cousin, my sister, the Agnis line. They never suspected a thing even with the building rumors that Maria and I were together. Losing the position of Princess meant our line was banished from the family estate, that's how the Khun family works. There's so many of us and we're always fighting someone, even if it's ourselves.
My sister couldn't take the failure, even if it was all my fault and she killed herself. And my cousin, Kiseia, refused to believe that I was the reason that we lost everything until I told her straight to her face over and over. I don't regret a single part of it, not then and not now.
...I haven't seen Maria since she became a Princess. I did what she wanted and that made me happy at the time, but I guess—I wanted to stay by her side even after. But I was too afraid to ask and too stupid to realize that even I can get lonely.
I feel like I've finally figured that part of me out, though. With you. [ whispered, just for them. he hasn't cried in years upon years, but his voice is heavy and his chest tight. ]