[ It's clear alright, which is why Day's cheeks are flushing a deep shade of red. When he had told Ginger the ring wasn't meant to be a proposal, he had a lot of thoughts running through his head: that it was too soon, considering they'd only known each other for two months; it could count a promise, which didn't seem fair to Phil; maybe it'd make Phil feel guilty, because he could see Phil worrying about Day choosing him, who had limited time.
And, well. Day had already given up on the idea of that sort of union, because it would mean letting someone see his less-than-perfect heart while asking them if they'd stay. He couldn't imagine someone still choosing him (it's impossible to choose something that can't be grasped) so he may as well save himself the heartache of a foregone conclusion. It's better to hope to become something like an indelible mark or scar in another person's life instead.
But Phil asking him that makes his heart tighten. They both already know they chose each other, so it shouldn't be affecting him so much, but seeing Phil want to demonstrate it shakes the part of him that's still so used to giving up and keeping expectations low, however unconsciously.
Oh. He wants a future with Day in it. Phil wants to hold onto him. His love doesn't have to endure without the expectation that it'll be returned.
Day is trying to blink back tears when he answers. ]
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And, well. Day had already given up on the idea of that sort of union, because it would mean letting someone see his less-than-perfect heart while asking them if they'd stay. He couldn't imagine someone still choosing him (it's impossible to choose something that can't be grasped) so he may as well save himself the heartache of a foregone conclusion. It's better to hope to become something like an indelible mark or scar in another person's life instead.
But Phil asking him that makes his heart tighten. They both already know they chose each other, so it shouldn't be affecting him so much, but seeing Phil want to demonstrate it shakes the part of him that's still so used to giving up and keeping expectations low, however unconsciously.
Oh. He wants a future with Day in it. Phil wants to hold onto him. His love doesn't have to endure without the expectation that it'll be returned.
Day is trying to blink back tears when he answers. ]
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