Of course not. No one willingly becomes a monster, even if some may later go on to embrace it after it is chosen for them.

[ monsters are made, whether by circumstance or others' actions, and if chosen it is by those who have little other recourse. ]

But denying yourself to the point where you lose yourself to it is hardly an improvement. If you're in control of yourself now, then you can act to manage it properly.

To that end, how much do you need regularly?